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Moving Forward

2007-09-08T21:46:00.000-07:00

The gal had made her decision. And the guy(Guy A) had left & for a good reason. He wished that the gal he luvs can be happy..

It is natural that when the other guy(Guy B) gave word that he would change, this gal would definitely wish to try work out the relationship again, since she still feels something for Guy B. If not she would regret if Guy B really changed..

No matter what would happen in the future, be it Guy B had really changed or never... Guy A had left for now.. so as to let nature take its course...
He felt that, as a Guy, he would take things in his stride the way he would. Like what people usually say, "Nan Ren Yao Na De Qi, Fang De Xia".

Although he had left, and moved on.. but from his heart... If one dae things still really can't workout for Guy B and the gal.. Guy A jux hope the gal will realise that Guy A is still somewhere nearby, wishing that she will not put him out when the dae comes, that he really wished to be with her, and love her..

Before he left, Guy A left this gal a song.. "Hand Me Down" by Matchbox 20.. in the hope that the gal would understand what he meant through the lyrics. For now, what Guy A will do is to get on with his life well..

Boy meets Gal - Part 2

2007-08-27T22:53:00.000-07:00

After both the guy and the gal gotten each other's contacts... they started to chat alot on what they did during that lost 5 years.. The gal was actually studying abroad, and had actually came back on her first holiday when they met again..

Both of them continued to stay in contact even when the gal goes back to the foreign country to study.. They gradually understand each other more.. pour out their hearts to each other of almost everytin' under the sun... whether happy or sad stuffs... Eventually, they became very good frens again.. Each time the gal comes back for holiday, he will meet up with her.

During this long period, the guy gradually felt that the gal had become more matured and more sensible.. and he also discovered that he understand her more - much more than years ago while they were together.. He also knew that the gal had had a bad experience with her another ex bf, who had hurt her deeply before... This guy consoled her.. And he also found himself liking this gal once again.. Hence, he wanted to bring this gal happiness when she returns after her graduation, and protect her to refrain her from any more harm...

After a long wait.. the gal finally graduated... and she had returned home... this guy was wondering should he tell the gal of his feelings during this period, but hesitated as he was worried he was not worthy for her, becoz of his inferior background.. But after much consideration, the guy finally decided that he really likes the gal a lot, he really wanted to be with the gal, to cherish and protect her now that she came back.. Hence, he poured out all his feelings to her...

Unfortunately... the gal told him that... she still feels sometin for that same ex bf who had hurt her deeply before... This guy was shocked and his heart was shattered... but despite his sadness, he was persistent... he wanted to drag her out of it, to bring her happiness... (For many years... this guy have been searching and searching... to seek for a rightful gal for himself... but after turning a big round... he still end up finding that this gal was the one... the one whom he would want to cherish and protect, the one whom he really loves...) He said and did what he should do to let the gal reconsider... in the hope to be with her...

No matter what may be the outcome.. this guy will accept what is fated to be.

Boy meets Gal - Part 1

2007-08-27T22:35:00.000-07:00

A guy met a gal when he was 13 yrs old.. that time he was in secondary one.. He saw this gal from another class.. He felt a bit of liking for this gal, but never thought much coz he dun even know her..

14 yrs old.. This guy was in sec 2.. He never never believe his eyes that.. the gal would be streamed into his class.. Quietly, he hid his feelings and never thought much partly becoz during that time... he was shorter in height, than the gal he likes...

This went on to 15 yrs old, when he was sec 3... They were all the way in the same class..
Surprisingly.. by the time he reached 15 yrs old, he grew much taller, taller than the gal he likes.. After the end of year exams that year, this guy finally made known his feelings to this gal.. They were finally together...

That time, the guy was still young and he didn't maintain the r/s well.. Unfortunately... they broke off when he was 16 yrs old...

He was very upset over it. He didn't want it that way. He felt extremely regretful for his negligence for the r/s... After the breakup, this guy was then really down on luck.. Jux a few daes after that... this guy had a bad fall and even fractured his ankle..

He did not dare to ask for her hand again after he recovered.. coz he felt it's his negligence that coz the breakup...
Subsequently, they never kept in contact after sec 4 examinations..

From then on, he actually took 2 years to gradually forget about this r/s.
Each of them lead their own lives and lost contact of each other for 5 years.
During that 5 years.. many dramatic things happened to this guy...
Jux when this guy felt the lowest peak in his life when all these happened... The gal that he once loved a lot, appeared.. and they met once again...

Year 2004, on a good fren's 21st bdae, the guy unexpectedly.. saw the gal at the party.. but they were like total strangers... might have seen each other, but never even waved to each other.. Soon after the party, while on the way home, this guy asked his best buddy, "how will u feel when u see ur ex gf again after many yrs?".. Many things of the past came to his mind.. but these were only some bits of thoughts that came to his mind suddenly..

Jux 2 weeks after that party.. this guy faced the deepest valley in his life.. his beloved mother passed away... during the wake... he was brought to a surprise again... Unexpectedly, the gal came...the first thing that came to his mind was total shock, and couldn't believe what he saw.. he couldn't believe that the gal would come for his mother's wake.. he was touched... they finally started to talk once again, at the wake... after a long 5 years...

Another 2 weeks after the funeral... this guy felt a little better emotionally.. he felt thankful that the gal actually came to his mother's funeral.. so he gotten her contact from another fren to thank her... from then on... they kept in contact once again..

Compete with YOUR-self

2007-07-13T14:10:00.000-07:00

People always say that "Ren Bi Ren Qi Si Ren", I feel that it's quite true.
I always feel that my principle in life is "Don't always compete with others, compete with yourself". Coz' Man's greatest enemy is he himself, not others!

In our lives, there's always no end to "Man competing with Man" if u come to think of it. You can be better than others but that doesn't mean that you are extraordinary. So, I feel that it's important that a person must know what he needs to do and always try his best in the things he do. As long as he did his best and never let himself or other people down, it should be enough. Most important thing is don't get bothered by what others think, jux "Do the Right Thing"!

It's jux a principle that I live with lah. How about u?
Are you among the "Ren Bi Ren Qi Si Ren" category?
Or...
Have u even thought of your own principle in life...

Working part-time

2007-06-22T11:32:00.000-07:00

Finally get to increase my pay after my attachment!! Negotiate for sooooo loooong..... wat the hell...! But lucky they finally decided to increase lah.. whew...!
Btw, I'm currently working part-time at SAM (don't wana name it in full here). It is located in between Boon Lay & Lakeside MRT, right below the MRT track. You can go find it, but i feel that u dun waste your time.. The name sounds good lah(isit?), but the attachment pay like shit.. somemore even wana pay same amount after my attachment period lor... damn... Lucky now they increase it after much negotiation. :)

Life never been the same

2007-06-12T17:24:00.000-07:00

Losing a loved one in a family is painful.. True enough that one should have been much independent after some time after e lost.. but once in a while, one will surely land in situations in which he will require the kind of helping hand that none others could give... except for e lost loved one..

The loss of my loved one really caused great impact for my life.. Since then, many things had changed in my family... and life has really become more sucky for me...

Rite now, I'm sort of leading my life on my own... Some of my friends asked me, "Why do u still stay in hostel even during the holidaes?" I might have given them some answers that sound.. "oh ok, fair enough". However.. I know clearly in my heart that the real reason is none other than to "escape".. (Who will like to bo dai bo ji always stay in hall even during the holidaes? Who?? That person mux be mad lah..)

I believe many people may jux think that no matter where they'd gone to, or what they'd been thru' in e outside world, going back home is still the best, as "there is no place like home".

After many things that'd happened.. the feeling of me wanting to return home seemed to be fading away.. just like beautiful drawings on the wall, washed away bit by bit, by rain.. Disappointment- the reason..

I really wish I could lead a normal & simple life like most people do, with a "complete" family. (Complete family for me NOW means a family with its members truly care for one another. Losing a member in a family doesn't make a family incomplete.. but what makes a family incomplete is the crack between its members that could hardly be sealed.)

How's your 21st birthday?

2007-06-10T09:46:00.000-07:00

I'm very happy when I see how people celebrate for their 21st bdae'. How did u celebrate yours? Did u receive many great presents?? :)

I feel envious and happy to see how people enjoyed their 21st bdae celebrations, and I'm always glad to be in part of their celebrating parties. :) Coz' I understand how it is like to have missed out on a 21st bdae. Mine was spent quietly alone for some reason.. so I know what it is like.. (Dun ask me what reason!)

21 years old is only once in a lifetime. So I really feel that everyone else should jux enjoy theirs' to the fullest whenever they can! Coz' once u missed it, it is gone. Remember that!! ;)

Downturn & Turnover

2007-06-01T00:31:00.000-07:00

Everyone steppin' on this piece of ground will definitely go thru' ups downs.. For myself, its like I'd been sitting for many rounds of roller coaster until this point of time.. Fall then stand up, then fall again, and then stand up, and then fall again..

Maybe to many friends out there, I may give 'em e impression that I have a very good family background and everything in my life is smooth sailing, but it's not like that lah.. I won't list out what setbacks I had down here, coz it's damn ma fan.. I can only say, it mainly concerns my family and of course, myself lah.. But really, "it takes a greater courage for one to stand up again, each time one falls"...

During my downturn periods, I constantly tell myself.. "Hey, look! You can overcome them, just take them as challenges in life. You certainly can do it. There are plenty of pple out there who are even worse than u! Get on with ur life with ur head high up!"

That's e motivation that had pushed me on til now, and I believe it will continue to push me on for e future. I had become much stronger & independent since then..

Duno since when and why.. I suddenly find it hard for tears to drip out from my eyes even when I see very sad things.. I'm not trying to boost whatsoever that "wah.. i'm so strong ah.." <--- that kind of shit... (but of course, not tellin' pple that I became "COLD-BLOODED"!! no please...!!) it's jux that.. it became something which had taken over me.. which i duno since when.. and given a choice if time could turn back... who will wana go thru' those sad things for nutin and land themselves in deep shit?
But true enaf perhaps, at e end of the day, it's really thru' many setbacks that we'd gone thru' in life that we'll have a different perspective of life.. and only thru' setbacks that we'll be mould.. I had learned to take each setback as a challenge that I wish to overcome, and I learned to cherish people who are really worth treasuring along my way..

There're a few great friends who'd given me utmost support, mentally.. whenever I fall... which I felt it's so damn important to help one get on with life! I deeply appreciate them.. Without them & my sis, I'm only shit..

okok, enaf of all these mushy-mushy-long-winded crap..

Just sharing these simple bits of thoughts here to encourage pple.. not to tell pple how sad I am ok! haha.. jux hope whoever reading the above to maybe get a bit of motivation as well lah.. (whether or not u're the one in your downturn period now, or u have friends suffering e downturn period, encourage them man!!)

Blogging

2007-06-01T00:29:00.001-07:00

I found that I needa throw out my thoughts somewhere.. argh... can't stand it anymore.. But to where? to where?? Maybe thru a blog like this.. en 'til I find a better place perhaps..?
But some things I write here may be crap lah.. Bear wif me.. :)